Sorry guys that I haven't been blogging very much. I really should be lol. I've been so focused on updated on YouTube that I forget to also update here! Anyway I'm going to try to make an effort to also update on here even if it's just short.
I was in the city a few weeks ago for a conference and it was weird to think that my baby's birth parents might be in the city with me. I might have seen them on the street or in the mall. They might have not even met yet, who knows. It also hit me that this really is going to be an insanely long wait. I go back next week to start the application and do the classes but that is just the beginning. There are so many steps involved just to get approved and then once I am then I just wait. And wait and wait and wait. I could have a baby in 2015 or not until 2020 or later. No one knows.... unlike international adoption there is no "list" where you are moved up the list until there is a baby for you. With private domestic adoption the birth mother picks you so it's whenever (if ever!) you are chosen. Until then I will have to watch others get pregnant and have babies while I wait. And wait and wait and wait. There is a tiny bit of hope that either the fact that I am open to either gender, any race, most special needs or the fact that I might be able to adopt from this community might be able to speed up my wait but there is no guarantee. Everything is still relying on a birth mother choosing me.
Anyway, I'm really hoping that this initial meeting and the classes will be a positive experience. I'm looking forward to getting more information and having a plan in place. I'm also excited to have the first of three major chunks of the financial part paid for lol. I'm very grateful that I was able to get into the classes so quick as I thought I would have to wait until the fall. I'm also hoping that I will be able to get part of the homestudy completed at the end of August when I'm in the city before returning up here.
I can't believe that it's almost time for me to go out and then I'll be back here before I know it. Then June will fly by and it will be summer! Summer is always quick and relaxing as well. It's really nice and I'm really lucky to be able to have two months off every year to spend with my family. I'm hoping that I will be able to get some clothes shopping done with my mom and maybe look at some other baby things like I did last summer. I'm also going to be busy because I have camp mid-July as well as a cruise at the beginning of August! I might have to get something for baby on the cruise :P.
A friend and I also plan to go to Disney World next summer. Originally when I was TTCing we were planning on going with baby but since it will take a while we have decided to go before baby and then again later with baby. I really want to go there and since I don't know how long it will be before I can with baby I want to have something to look forward to each summer. It really does help take my mind off of baby.
So that's it for now! ttyl
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!