I can’t believe that this is my sixth two week wait. Sometimes if feels like I just started TTC but other times I feel like it’s been forever. I really thought I would be pregnant right now. I had in my mind four cycles. Four cycles is what it would take me to get pregnant and have a baby from it. Here I am at cycle number six waiting to see if maybe this one worked. I know last cycle technically “worked” since I did get pregnant but since I didn’t get the outcome I thought I would it doesn’t “count”. Although it technically hasn’t been six months because my cycles are not thirty days it feels like I’ve been trying for that long. I guess I have since my first cycle was July and it’s now February but I did have some cycles off in between the AD and KD. I also understand that a lot of women try for years so I shouldn’t complain about six months but it’s just hard to go cycle after cycle without anything to show for it. I use my Facebook profile to keep those that know I’m trying in the loop so I don’t actually have to tell them where I am in my cycle. I’m so tired of changing it…. I just want to be able to change it to the picture that they are all waiting to see. Because last cycle was chemical I did use a different picture because I felt I needed something that didn’t mean my period but also didn’t mean I was pregnant. It was nice to have a change but I want it to be a good change.
I’m really hopeful this cycle though. I feel that using the soft cup really helps to keep the sperm by my cervix for longer. Also I feel that having the multiple inseminations and shipments is much better than me just having one. My only concern with this cycle is that only one of my shipments has come and I already ovulated so the other two are basically a waste. Also the first shipment came on Thursday and I ovulated Sunday. I did a lot of inseminations though so I hope there was still some sperm living by the time I ovulated. I’d rather have a shipment come the day before and/or of ovulation but I will take what I can get. Sperm can live a long time, especially in the right conditions. It was shipped on Monday and the first insemination was a day earlier than usual so some sperm was in me, in good CM and pre-seed then. After that it just needed to live in me for a few days longer.
I really hope this cycle worked but if not I hope there will eventually be a good cycle where all the pieces fall into place and I not only get pregnant but stay pregnant.
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!
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