Most of my homestudy paperwork is complete. It was very similar to when I did private adoption. But there were a few things I was waiting to do because they A) cost money B) expire or C) both A and B. I decided to go ahead with my child registry check from Manitoba (which falls under C) because it takes 4-6 weeks to be processed. Since I've lived in three different provinces in the past five years I need a child registry check from each one. Thankfully my police clearance is Canada-wide so I only need one from the RCMP. The child registry check from Ontario seems like it is free but I'm not sure yet. I'm not sure about Alberta either but I'm going to apply for that one at the same time as my police clearance. Other than my registry/police checks the only other homestudy paperwork I need to do is my medical clearance. YAY!
It's starting to get real but it's also starting to get scary. My biggest fear right now is unfortunately finances. I know I can run a million fundraisers but there is no guarantee that I will raise enough in time. Some people will say that if you need to fundraise you shouldn't adopt but in reality very few people can afford a $40,000 expense in less than two years. It doesn't cost that much to raise a child. My other argument is that I've been on this journey for almost five years, I'm ready to be done and if that means fundraising so be it. There's a lot more I can say about the topic but I'll leave it at that. I have two big fees that will be almost back to back. Those are the two that scare me the most. Right now I have time to save up for the homestudy/initial costs, then I'll have time to save for my dossier costs while my homestudy is being written. But after that I will only have about two months to come up with over $16,000. That's the one that scares me. Once that is paid I will then have a long time to save for travel. That $16,000 fee is what is hovering over me right now. That's a LOT of money in a short amount of time. I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to come up with it when the time comes. What I do know though is that I can't let my fear of it stop me. I have see amazing things in the adoption community. Mountains moved, clouds lifted. I'm just hoping when the time comes and that giant mountain is in front of me I will be able to see it move. Until then I'm going to keep filling out paperwork one page at a time.
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!