I moved back to Ontario with one simple goal; build a life here. I decided to go back to school so I can get a job that pays good (not as much as teaching but good enough), complete the adoption process here, live here forever with my family and live happily ever after. Now a year and a bit later that doesn't even seem possible. The job market here is rough and the housing market even worse. For ever job posting a hundred people are fighting for it. For every house listing a hundred people are fighting for it. It's come to the point where I know that for me to stay here my only option will be to work at a call centre the rest of my life making just over minimum wage. This is not acceptable for me. This is not going to help lead me to my future daughter. This will not provide my daughter with the best chances in life. In order to change this is means I need to do something big. I need to do something that I'm terrified of. It means I need to leave Ontario forever. By forever I don't mean I will never be back for visits, I just mean that I need to start building a life elsewhere.
It's really hard though because my family is very close. I love spending time with them and I want my future daughter to be able to be around family. Thankfully my family wants to move too. It won't be right away but will be in the next five years. My parents are almost ready to retire and they won't be able to do that here with a lower income and the cost of living here going up. Thankfully the cost of living where I want to move is not as bad so in the end they will be better off moving. My younger brother has always wanted to move because there are more jobs outside of Ontario. My older brother is also excited to move as this area is getting worse and worse and he also sees that the job market is a fight.
So my plan is to get back into teaching but not in Ontario. I've already started the process to get some of the paperwork done and I hope to have a job by next fall. I've applied to a few but my paperwork isn't done and it's not really hiring time for teachers. Once I get out there I'll be able to save money a lot faster and therefore be able to complete the adoption a lot faster. Then I can start my life with my daughter in a place where I have a job I enjoy and a positive future for her. I REALLY can't wait! I wish I could leave today :)
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!