Shipping was expensive and stressful and I felt like the long in transit times most likely were killing off all the sperm. I just didn't feel like it was worth my time, energy and money to try to get pregnant while living here.
Well life decided to mix things up for me. I lost my cat (my first baby boy!!) on Friday, then Monday work drama just became too much for me. My plan was to stick it out here another year and then if I didn't get a baby by then I would move to somewhere I could make more money to save for surrogacy. All this stress has really been getting to me and after talking to friends and family I've decided to QUIT!!! I'm a teacher so I will finish off my contact, especially since there's only a month and a half left. My family is so supportive and are letting me live with them for the next year. I'm going to try to lose some weight, TTC, try to get my endo better under control, and if I don't have a baby by next summer hopefully freeze some embryos for surrogacy later.
It's amazing how much happier I have been since I've decided to do this! It's like I've been carrying around rocks and everything has just lifted away now. I'm no longer worried about it taking longer to get a baby, I'm no longer depressed about losing my baby boys, I'm not longer missing my family and friends and wishing I was there with them, and most importantly I'm no longer worried about the future. I know my plan for the next two years. If I get pregnant during the next year, great! If not I will be able to save for surrogacy and make my dreams come true :)
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!