I ovulate(d) today, which will hopefully be the last one in a while that is wasted. Hopefully my period will come on or shortly after October 24th and I can start the countdown to my next insemination. I'm not sure how the shipping timing will be but hopefully it will work. I'm hoping to have my donor send two shipments. Right now if my cycle starts on the 24th I will ovulate on a Thursday. I would have my donor ship on the previous Friday and on the Monday. Hopefully the packages will arrive by Tuesday (5 days after shipping, 2 days before ovulation) and Wednesday (3 days after shipping, 1 day before ovulation). Since it is fresh and he has had success with 4 day transit times, fingers crossed it will work. Since we are back to using Canada Post I'm not worried about it getting delivered properly like I was with Purolator. Also shipping is costing half the price of Purolator so doing two shipments wouldn't cost much more (only $25 for supplies).
I'm really hoping to be pregnant by 2014. I have three cycles by then. My biggest worry still is implantation time. I know I have a short cycle, my luteral phase is only about 11 days. I understand that implantation can happen early and also that my cycle might be longer certain months but I'm hoping I won't have to try a million cycles to get it right. I'm really excited about using a known donor. It's so relaxing to know that if one cycle doesn't work I can just try again the next. Because I will go from waiting to ovulate to waiting to see if I'm pregnant and then right back into waiting to ovulate, I won't have these long periods of time where I'm just planning to try. Although it will be horrible if month after month I'm still not pregnant it will be nice to know that I can keep trying and that it's not costing me a small fortune every month. In fact if I was paying for a frozen donor I would never be able to afford it every month. Now that I have all the supplies I need for at less two to three cycles all I have to pay for is shipping and my donor's supplies. For each shipment it will cost $75 so if I decide to do two shipments per cycle it will only cost $150. That's a savings of 90% compared to a frozen donor. I would have to try for 10 cycles with my known donor to equal the same cost as one cycle with a frozen donor. It also means that I will have more money for baby once I am pregnant. If I'm not pregnant in a year I will probably switch to using my surrogate. But given that I have a 25 day cycle that means I will have 14 cycles to try. That will be 14 LONG cycles if I'm not pregnant by the end of it.
I don't know why but I love knowing the stats of everything. Knowing how much each cycle will cost, how much I will save, how many cycles, etc. brings me peace. At my age, with proven sperm, I shouldn't have issues getting pregnant. My donor said I shouldn't have any issue getting pregnant within the first 4 cycles. That puts me at January. It's really crazy to think that there is a good chance I will be pregnant by then . That means there is a very good chance I will be having a baby in 2014. Since I want to go to Disney in January or February during the first year that means beginning of 2015.... crazy!
Maybe it's the hormones, but I'm just so incredibly hopeful that this will work. I was hopeful with the frozen donor but not knowing when I would be able to try and how many cycles I could afford it was looking like there was no end in sight. Now with having the known donor I'm just so happy, so free, so excited, so everything positive, that this was the baby I was meant to have.
When I was getting my cat, I didn't get the one I originally planned. When getting my dog, I didn't get the one that I planned. Now with the baby I am trying to conceive a baby I didn't originally imagine myself having. But now it just seems so right. The new names I picked seem like they were meant to be. My mom, who always had a joke/comment/song about every name I picked had nothing negative to say about my new names. In fact she LOVES the girl's middle name I picked. I accidentally called my dog the first name I chose (same for both genders) the other day. It just seemed so right.
Today I bought stuff I know I shouldn't have. I bought some craft stuff to make a countdown for my parents (XX weeks/days until we are grandparents), an age counter for photos (XX days/weeks/months/years), and letters for making the baby's name (since the ones I bought to the initials of the name I originally was going to use no longer matter). A few weeks ago I also bought beads to make a name bracelet. I can't wait for everything to come so I can start making things. I wish I knew how to knit better so I could make some baby things other than a blanket lol.
I also bought a personalized onesie (actually two :P) but I didn't. I allowed myself to buy the craft stuff instead. I told myself that I can order the onesies once I know for sure I am pregnant. Hopefully that means I will be placing an order mid-November :D
This upcoming try I'm going to try to put off testing. Last time I was obsessive with it. This time I want to relax and enjoy it until either my period comes, or it is late. I want the feeling of hopefulness as long as possible. I don't want to have a negative test later in my cycle and lose hope, then be depressed while waiting for my period to come. I want my period to act as the switch to restart my planning, not a negative test.
Anyway, that was a much longer post than I intended. I hope to have great news by Christmas :D
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!
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