The clinic emailed me today saying that the blood work that they said was optional is really mandatory. This means that I'm screwed! The earliest I can do the blood work is July, so that makes me miss July's cycle. The results will take a month so that will make me miss August's cycle. I am sooooooooooo frustrated and pissed off at the clinic. If I had known that I needed the blood work I wouldn't have had the consultation and could have saved that money. Now I'm trying to go back to my original plan of getting the sperm sent to my family doctor and picking it up there. I got the form from the sperm bank for the release but I noticed the form states that the doctor will be doing the insemination so now I am worried that he can't/won't sign it since he is not doing the insemination. This is one of the few times I wish I lived in the US where I could order sperm and have it sent to my home without this bullshit.
I've also started looking into adoption again. First public (because of cost) but my chances of getting a newborn/infant are so little. Now I'm back to private but I am so scared that I will never end up getting a baby. It's hard for a single mom to adopt to begin with and because I am young I am worried that no birth mom will want to place with me since she might be my age or even older. I just want to curl in bed and cry. Why do others have such an easy journey when I can't even get mine to start!??!
This would be so much easier if my surrogate was ready sooner, or at least if I knew she can/would get pregnant easily....
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!
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