Had my consultation with the clinic doctor today and it went really well. My weight was not even a factor. Since I'm young and my cycles are super regular the doctor feels I have a good chance of success. I on the other hand have moments of hope followed by moments of hopelessness. But at least for now I know that I am set with the clinic for the inseminations, no worrying about trying to get the sperm to my doctor or how to pick it up etc. The clinic will handle everything, I just pick up the package at the FedEx depot and I'm good to go.
About 30 minutes ago a friend posted on facebook that she is having twins! Her daughter just turned one this past weekend and she is currently 11 weeks. It's weird because every time a SMC posts that she is pregnant I am super excited for her but for my friend although I'm happy it also make me upset. Maybe it's because she has a partner and therefore an unlimited supply of free sperm. Maybe it's because she didn't have to try month after month, year after year. Maybe it's because she did not have to spend loads of money. I'm not a religious person so I don't understand how one person can get something they want easily while for others it is harder. Why do I have endo while others are like rabbits? Who knows but if I get pregnant this summer I'm sure there will be a lot of people thinking "why did it only take her one or two tries while I've been trying for months/years".
I am 29, single, vegan, on my journey to becoming a single mother. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!