Then on Friday something amazing happened! Another door opened and I was pulled in. I knew India was an option before, I was going to meet an agency last spring but my consultation happened to be on the same day as my HSG testing so I had to cancel. At the time I wasn't sure if they had little girl's with Down syndrome available and the program seemed longer and more expensive than Bulgaria. On Friday though I needed to learn more! I started looking into the program more, into the culture more, and emailed the two agencies that were an option. I knew that I wouldn't likely get a reply until Monday but I was hoping for good news. I went back to some paperwork I had for one agency (I had requested info for one country in the fall of 2016 but their information packet had multiple country information in it) and found out some basic costs for India. It seemed that India was unpredictable and possibly more expensive. My brain was staying stick with the steady Bulgarian program that I knew a lot about but my heart was saying my daughter is from India.
I don't listen to my heart often, and that's what usually gets me in situations like trying to get pregnant instead of sticking with adoption. This time I knew I had to listen to my heart instead, at least until I heard from the agencies.
Sunday I started having symptoms of pink eye. I never missed any work since I was hired here and I was upset that this was one case where I would have to miss at least two days. I was NOT happy! Monday I was bored out of my mind at home. Finally the one agency emailed (the one I had the information package from) and gave me some good news. There were definitely little girls with Down syndrome available, the timeline was unpredictable but overall not much longer than Bulgaria. By this time I had already fallen in love with Indian culture. Then I heard from the other agency (the one I was suppose to consult with last spring but didn't). I was able to book an appointment for next Saturday since this Saturday was a long weekend. YAY, progress!! And I didn't have to wait until summer for a consult!! Then I realized that my pink eye was a blessing! Knowing I would be off Tuesday I could have my phone consultation then!! So I quickly emailed back asking if there was any appointments available and was able to get in!
So now it's Tuesday, an hour before my consultation. I have so many mixed emotions. On the one hand I am so excited to get information about the timeline, process, and fees. On the other hand I am terrified that I'm going to get some news that means I can't move ahead. My heart is already so invested in adopting from India that I just want everything to go well. I'll update once I have everything organized. Wish me luck!
I am 29, single, vegan, on my journey to becoming a single mother. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!