I thought I posted an update yesterday but apparently I didn't....
I have decided to walk away from IVF. I don't feel like it is the best choice for me financially, physically or emotionally. Instead I have started the process of adoption. I wasn't sure at first if I was going to domestic or international but I have decided to do domestic private. The wait might be long but it will be my best choice for me to get a newborn. It is also the cheapest option other than public adoption. I have an appointment at the end of May for my intake into the agency as well as the classes I need to take. I'm hoping that I will then be able to have my home study done in the fall, and fingers crossed be on a list early 2015! Everything is just falling into place so perfectly. With IVF I felt like I had so many road blocks and hurdles to conquer whereas with this it has been less than 48 hours and things are already falling into place. I will continue to TTC while pursuing adoption but it is a thousand times less stressful because I have a plan. I will need to stay here until finalized so it could be a long time but it will be worth it in the end.
I will be open to any gender, any race, and some special needs so I'm hoping that that will shorten my wait. The agency said the longest wait they've had was six years but they have also had people quit before placement. I'm hoping that their criteria was strict and therefore my wait will be shorter but who knows. I'm scared that because I am single and I am young a birth mom won't pick me. On the other hand I have traveled a lot, I have a good job, good income, and good education so hopefully she will look at that instead. Also maybe my age will help me because she will think I have more energy and more fun than an older mom. I also have not mourned the chance of having a biological child because I never felt the need to have one to begin with.
Anyway, I will keep you updated as I go on this brighter path to motherhood :D
I am 30, single, vegan, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother!